Well it's that time again, four weeks have passed and lucky me gets an hour of Femdom submission! Mmmm...
To be honest I entered this session convinced that I wasn't going to be allowed to cum and as it turned out that was Mistress R's original intention, but something happened half way through the session and that went out of the window.
I won't bother to relate every detail of the session because they don't vary all that much and I've reported on them in detail before, suffice to say that there was foot worship and face sitting and all that awesome stuff. I was given a whopping 30 paddle strokes (18 and then 12) for my 5 instances of touching - Mistress R is starting to get determined about stopping that it seems!
I was also allowed inside her a few times too, which was absolutely wonderful (her on top - even better!), and Mistress R was saying all the right things about controlling me and stuff, and then, unfortunately, she got a bit carried away and decided to ram this butt plug up my ass. Now I don't get stuff up my ass very often, once a month maximum, and sometimes it's easier than others, but the butt plug (not massive but not tiny either) needs to be inserted gently, preferably after something smaller has paved the way...
Well, to cut a short story short, it fucking hurt and I made it clear that it fucking hurt and we paused the session. She was a bit concerned and worried about hurting me, but after she removed it the pain subsided after about a minute and I was okay to continue. Fortunately the bulk of the session was over by this time as quite a substantial portion of the second half of the session is usually taken up with making her cum.
So she left me alone for a few minutes to relax and then when she came back she had me go down her. It was so nice to go down on her again (no pussy worship since Wednesday - what!!) and I really thought she was going to come in about three minutes! Fortunately I managed to keep her building her pleasure without letting her cum too soon and when she eventually did cum it was after about 20-25 minutes of pussy worship. She came super hard too, which was so good, and then she had me clean her up with my tongue.
Finally she tied me back down on the bed and allowed me to tongue her asshole while she wanked my cock. I think she must've been feeling guilty about hurting me and I was really surprised when she told me to cum while I tongue fucked her ass. I did, and it was great... of course I pretty much realised what had gone on there, and yeah it was a tiny bit disappointing... but at the same time, if Mistress R wanted to make herself feel better about hurting me that's cool, and I understand that. Besides, it was fantastic coming with my tongue in Mistress R's ass, so I really don't have too much to complain about!
So that's three times I've cum in three weeks.... I hope Mistress R starts to think about this two months of chastity she keeps threatening me with.

Yep, it's come around again, in about 12 hours I will be at Mistress R's mercy once more! I very much doubt I will be coming though, since it's only a week since I last came, and that was only a week after the one before, but you never know... if that's what Mistress wants!
Today has been cool. When I came out of the shower Mistress grabbed hold of my cock and talked to me about something (no idea what, it might have been what film we should watch later) while she got me hard. Then she took my cock into her mouth for about three seconds and then walked off. Then she came back and stroked me some more, telling me that I would get my treat later for losing another pound this week.
A few hours later she had me sitting on the couch, and knelt between my legs, sucking my cock. Several times she stopped and gave it a few slaps (nice!) and she sucked me and stroked me for about ten minutes I reckon, and then when she'd had enough she kissed me and groaned into my mouth as she could feel my cock throbbing against her stomach... it was hot!
Mistress declined my offer of pussy worship last night as she wants to wait for Sunday, 'like you do' she said. Hmm, a whole four days! Wow, I'm impressed..... hahahahaha.
I can't wait for tomorrow, I just know it's gonna be awesome, even though I'm sure I won't get to cum.

So, as my regular readers will know, this whole 'penetration' thing has been bubbling under for some time now... and last night I talked it through with Mistress R and finally felt like we'd reached a proper understanding between us. As I had suspected, penetration is enjoyable for Mistress R, but the feeling of having me inside her is more important than having me hammering away at her for twenty minutes...!
I brought up the recent episode where she asked me to penetrate her and I had to stop because I was getting too close to cumming (very quickly), and she told me that she wasn't disappointed I had to stop, she liked to feel my cock in her, but she also liked that I was turned on so much by it... personally I would have liked to have been a little bit less turned on by it and at least been able to enjoy it a while longer! But still, I still have a feeling the cocksling was something to do with it. I've kind of got out of the habit of wearing it and so I think maybe it was just too intense, on top of being on top of Mistress (for only the second time in 4 months!) and what, 7 or 8 days without orgasm.
I decided to bring up the whole 'letting me cum if she wants me to go longer' and 'using a dildo on her if she wanted it' and all that stuff, and got a very positive response. Actually a much better response than I could have hoped for, since she finally came off the fence and gave me some clear responses about this whole issue.
Also we talked about the whole 'giving up control' but then not accepting what is happening thing. Which is particularly relevant to the penetration issue, because (as she agreed) it's hard for a guy to give up control and then when he realises that his wife isn't acting the way he thought she would (e.g. asking for penetration...) he feels the need to tinker and try and 'help'.
I wouldn't say this is topping from the bottom, because it's not that the guy is necessarily trying to get what he wants, it's more (certainly in my case) that he feels like he's given all the control to her and she's struggling with it, struggling to accept the control and decide what she really wants... (or at least, I felt like she had asked for penetration and I had been unable to really give her that, because my chastity was getting in the way), so that made me feel like it wasn't working because she wasn't 'making it work', if that makes sense.
The upshot being that, of course, it's not my place to be interfering. If she's not happy, she needs to change things or she needs to talk to me about what will work (if she can't work it out for herself).
Actually, sometimes it probably doesn't help that us guys in chastity are pretty sexually driven, since we are constantly thinking about sex, and so maybe we feel like, 'if I was given complete autonomy I would be doing this and that', for example I might think, 'well she can have whatever she pleases, surely she's going to ask me to use this glass dildo on her now', but she might not, perhaps because she doesn't want it or perhaps because  she's quite happy with my fingers!
It's hard for guys to understand this, because we feel like we are giving the keys to kingdom, but our wives are happiest staying in the house they've always lived in, because it's where they feel at home. Plus of course, us guys have fantasized for however long about the passing of control and what that's going to mean, the drastic changes that are going to occur, well... in our case the changes really aren't that drastic.
Anyway, we've cleared that whole thing up now and she knows that I am happy with whatever she chooses to do, or have me do for her.
This feels like a hell of a big breakthrough to me since really this has been the last major issue I had with this whole thing, and because I hadn't been able to get to the bottom of how Mistress R really feels about this I really didn't know whether this was going to work permanently.
Now I am confident that we are both on the same page and that we both understand the way forward, and yes I'm sure that does mean that penetration is likely to be sporadic, but I guess I should have guessed that long ago, when Mistress R asked me to agree to the rule that I wasn't allowed to ask for penetration.
Still, I am willing to accept that because I want this to work and I'm sure it will now. Another thing Mistress R and I discussed last night was how giving her the control meant that there was no pressure anymore. If one of you is willing to submit (doesn't matter which one really) then all the tension is taken away, because there's no awkwardness or 'should I suggest doing something' or any of that. If she's in the mood and wants me to pleasure her then she tells me, otherwise she won't. For my part, I am always eager and because all that pressure is off me I can relax and enjoy it. The same for her because now there's no pressure on her to have sex if she doesn't want to... perhaps they should suggest this to couples having relationship troubles, or performance anxiety troubles!

Anyway. Last night was great, we sorted out all this crap and it felt like a weight was lifted, finally, and we are now both committed to what we are doing. We stayed up pretty late and when we went to bed I got so hard that I asked Mistress R if I could touch my cock, which I haven't done for ages. She said yes, but only for three minutes, she stroked it softly a few times until the clock changed and then let go. I took over and after about two minutes she reminded me that I wasn't allowed to cum and that I shouldn't go 'too far'. When the three minutes were up she ordered me to let go and then we kissed goodnight. It took my cock a full five minutes (without stimulation of any kind) to soften after that, it was remarkable!!!

So we are just one day away from 20 weeks of Mistress R having total control of my orgasms. In that period I have been allowed to cum 10 times, so that gives us an average of one orgasm every two weeks.

However, if we disregard the first month (April) the average falls from one orgasm every 14 days to one orgasm every 20 days!

Of those ten orgasms, only three have been inside Mistress R.

My longest wait between orgasms was 28 days, the shortest 6 (twice).

Over the same period Mistress R has enjoyed 44 orgasms!

The longest gap was 7 days, the shortest 2 days (many times).

The most orgasms Mistress R has had in one month was 10 (May and July), the most I have had in a month was 4 (April).

The least orgasms in one month was 8 for Mistress R (April) and 1 for me (June).

So far this month Mistress R has had seven orgasms and it looks very likely to be a new record. I have had one orgasm, and I wouldn't be surprised if my next one wasn't until September.

Well, I don't know what's got into Mistress R lately but over the last 12 days she's had six orgasms! I can't remember her wanting so much attention in years. This is fantastic. And they are so 'hard' too. I love it! For my part I had a few more minutes of teasing last night, which left me very hard indeed... with the promise of more tonight! It's Thursday so that means 'pub' night, I hope she wears those shoes again, only this time I won't be such an idiot and let myself become a gibbering wreck worrying about everything.
Actually, if this past week has done anything it's made me realise that I can satisfy Mistress R pretty damn well, and my cock has nothing to do with it! Makes me feel pretty damn good.

Last night I got to go down on Mistress R again, that's 5 times in the last ten days! I am a happy camper right now, and so is she! Another very hard orgasm for her and a few minutes of very gentle teasing for me and then we spent the rest of the night cuddled together on the sofa watching TV.
Perfect.

Mistress R has had 6 orgasms this month already and with her 'interruption' already out of the way, this could definitely be a new record month!
Sweet.

Yesterday afternoon, we did indeed have some pussy worship and Mistress R did cum really, really hard, and that made me SO happy. It felt like after that, everything was back to normal and we were happy again. So, crisis averted... we just have to keep going and I'm sure these little bumps will smooth out eventually.

Of the men and women who have voted, in both cases approximately two thirds of you aren't pierced at all...

So I guess some of you might be wondering what's going on in my head today. Well, all I can tell you is that the situation has been diffused markedly. And now everything is pretty much back how it was. I am still in chastity, though I have been allowed to cum, Mistress R gave me a wonderful orgasm which was absolutely mindblowing, and she even swallowed most of it - she saved a little bit for me too....
Best of all, I will be going down on her later, that will help chill me out no end!

I feel like I'm at a HUGE crossroads right now. Things are just getting so fucked up and my mental state is suffering, badly!

This evening has been wonderful. Mistress R and I spent the evening in a local pub, which was really nice, just being alone with her. But on top of that she decided to wear her new shoes (the ones I bought her a couple of weeks ago). They looked super-sexy on her and before we went out she sat on the bed and had me kneel down on the floor and put them on for her. I really loved doing that, and taking them off later... she looked absolutely amazing at the end of the night, standing in just her knickers and those awesome shoes... OMFG!
Once her shoes were safely back in the box we went downstairs and Mistress R allowed me to worship her gorgeous feet for a little while. I loved doing that so much, she really does have the most kissable feet and suck-able toes.
This was just what I needed tonight. My other post is obviously still playing on my mind and I am feeling a bit weird to tell you the truth. I feel like by the end of the night I was tripping, in subspace, without having done anything really... but I feel, so... I feel completely lovesick to tell you the truth. I could hardly bring myself to stop kissing her legs and go to bed.
You know what, I feel like that time I've mentioned before in one of our femdom sessions, when she had me sucking her strap-on and I just felt submission wash over me and I felt like I would do absolutely anything for her, literally anything she wanted me to do. I've rarely felt like that before or since, and certainly not in what is really a pretty vanilla environment.
I love feeling like this, but at the same time it makes me feel very vulnerable, it's kind of scary... all I can think about is how gorgeous she looked tonight, and how silky smooth her gorgeous legs are. I just want to keep kissing them all night, and I feel an absolute need to taste her pussy and make her cum again.
Seriously... I feel like bursting into tears right now. I feel so overwhelmed by how I'm feeling. I genuinely adore my Mistress, all I want to do is give her pleasure.
Sometimes this is so wonderful and so hard, all at the same time.

I'm somewhat troubled by this turn of events. This is the first time I've had this problem. Over the last four months I've really enjoyed having sex without orgasm, but perhaps I shouldn't panic too soon. Firstly as I believe I mentioned before, apart from one time, every time I've been allowed penetration Mistress has gone on top, and the one time I was on top, was definitely slower and gentler, but nothing like last week's 60 second edge!
Secondly, the Oxballs cocksling felt unusually tight and this didn't help matters, I think next time I will try the old cock ring I used to use as it is not as intense.
There are two more things I am wondering about...
Firstly, is chastity cumulative? What I mean is if I go three weeks and then am allowed to cum once, how 'empty' am I, how far back do I fall? How long does it take to reach the same level of need, does it take another three weeks?
Okay I'm not explaining this very well.
Say I was in chastity for two weeks, then I was allowed to cum, then I had a break of two days where I came to my hearts content, and then I was back in chastity. Is it not reasonable to think that it would take longer to get back to the high level of need than if I was allowed to cum once and then was straight back into chastity?
Given that, and that I've been in chastity for over four months now, without a break, is the cumulative effect of that the result I experienced the other day?
Another thing, I'm wondering if my new healthier lifestyle is contributing to the problem. It's well known that people who are overweight have a lower libido, so given that I've lost a fair amount of weight over the last few weeks, could it be that my libido is increasing and so where before I was able to cope with being on top because my libido was lower, now I can't? I know that the idea is you get fitter and your stamina increases, but it wasn't long enough for my 'stamina' to come into it! I don't know, maybe this was a one off problem... I won't really know until we try it again.
Thanks to Harry for his comment, it's nice to know that others have experienced this too.
I don't really know what to think about this now... it could be that simply having Mistress R on top will solve the problem, I certainly hope so, because having sex without cumming is wonderful and even though Mistress R decides how long it lasts, I would much rather she jumped off after a minute and left me begging for more, than I had to stop because I was getting too close.
I am also a bit fidgety about this because it bothers me that Mistress R wanted me to put my cock in her and she got like a minute before I had to either stop or cum. That, to me, is a negative effect on her, when the major part of this for me was that I wanted to make sex better for her!
Hmm, I don't know. I guess if Mistress really wanted me inside her then she could allow me to cum and then a few hours later I should be able to penetrate her without a problem. But it's hardly spontaneous is it..
Right now this is looking like something which might change my mind about wanting this, I guess Mistress R and I will have to discuss this... and I guess it really comes down to how important penetration is to her, which is something I still don't really know.

I'm feeling a little conflicted about the whole chastity thing at the moment, simply because of what happened the other day. See, I was okay with it when I could make love to Mistress R and not cum, but the other day I couldn't take more than a minute without having to stop! That is not good. She asks me to put my cock in her and I have to stop after a minute because I'm going to cum, that's negatively affecting her, maybe we need to think about this some more.

Last night was wonderful though, Mistress R had a really hard orgasm on my tongue and despite being sleepy she still gave some wonderful teasing, just her hand this time, but still left me pretty desperate to cum I can tell you.

Well, Mistress R has just enjoyed her 40th orgasm since we started this, and I also got some lovely, lovely teasing too - that's three days in a row! I'm guessing there's no chance tomorrow now... Oh well, hopefully it'll be time for orgasm number 41 on Wednesday, I do hope so.
Mistress R and I are feeling totally loved up since we sorted out our problems and I'm pretty sure that I'm not gonna be coming anytime soon. In fact I would put money on not being allowed to cum until our next Femdom session, which is nearly two weeks away, and I'm on day 9 now, so it would be a 22 day stretch. But who knows maybe she'll make me go beyond even that.... I kinda hope so actually.

Mistress R will be taken care of tonight, and that will be her 40th orgasm since the 1st April. That will mean she's had 40 to my 9 (and four of them were in April!). Even if she decides to let me cum tonight, which I doubt very much, she will still have enjoyed four orgasms for every one of mine since we started. And if things carry on as they are that imbalance is only going to get bigger. I hope eventually I will only be getting one for every ten of hers, that would be wonderful, whether hers become more frequent or mine become more scarce. If it wasn't for Mistress R's generosity in April then I would be a lot closer to that now. Still, I can well imagine that being more like one for every six by the end of the year, as the distorting effect of those early orgasms ebb away...

The lovely Miss Christina has just left this comment on one of my posts and I just wanted to respond to it a bit.


Miss Christina said...
I have certainly never meant to offend your Mistress with any of my comments. I love to interact and get to know people and tease, and if something I share someone finds to be a good idea then great. I also tend to want to show some support to submissive friends, because I do relate to what you are going through. I think in the beginning sharing everything might have been good because she saw what you were posting on the blog and what comments were taking place, and this way she knew she had nothing to worry about.

Firstly Miss Christina I love your comments and I value your interaction and contributions to my blog, I know Mistress R didn't mean that she didn't appreciate your comments, it was just all getting too much, because I was giving her so much information (sometimes conflicting) every day and she just get fed up with it. It seems my thoughts about leaving her alone to grow at her own pace was correct because last night's teasing was sensational!


I think it is sweet she asks about me and Sam. I am also glad that she hasn't felt threatened in any way by us talking. I just hope that my comments have not made her feel bad.

It really wasn't your comments as such, it was just feeling like she was getting beaten over the head with too much She said to me that she felt like whatever she did was never enough, that I want this and then I want this and then that... (as you can imagine that made me feel like SHIT!).


I do agree though that going forward as she is growing more and more, she probably could start to feel you are topping from the bottom in some of what you write, even if you don't mean it like that.

Absolutely. I think that was necessary in the beginning, because I think left to her own devices she would have struggled. You can't expect someone to know what you want without giving them the information. But it's come to the point where it's time to stop, or to at least scale it back a long way. She knows broadly what I crave now and I think she's going to really take control now. I showed her the post I wrote last night and she loved it so much that she actually kept it... She never made any comment on the part I wrote in there about hoping to one day be more of a 'slave' than I am now, but I hope it sinks in because I would love that so much, one day.


Your love for her is just beautiful. Clearly she loves you very much too. Aside from the appearances when you are thinner and in better shape she can tease you longer and
harder too.

Thank you Miss Christina, I am very much looking forward to being thinner, fitter and harder for longer for her pleasure.  

Today has been a good day, Mistress and I went into town and then we came back and watched the awesome 'Tool Academy 3'. Just unbelievable trash-TV! Perfect for Sunday afternoon...
Anyway, a little later I came downstairs and asked Mistress R if I could please worship her feet. She said that I could and I lay on the floor and lovingly kissed her feet and sucked her toes for 10-15 minutes, it was so wonderful, I loved every single second of it. Mistress R really has truly beautiful feet, in fact it's not just my opinion, apparently the pedicurist said the same thing too! They really are gorgeous, perfectly proportioned and just so pretty. I adore them.
So after that, we lay together on our new long sofa. Me sitting up and Mistress R leaning back on me with my arm laying on her. after a while she turned over and started to rub my cock through my shorts, then she slid her hand up the leg of my shorts and started stroking my balls. Then she got up to go to the kitchen and when she came back she told me she wanted my shorts off. Well, she didn't need to ask twice and my cock was already starting to swell. I sat back down on the leather sofa and she knelt on the floor and started to suck my cock, which was Heavenly as usual. Then she surprised me by out of the blue giving my cock a few slaps, which made me harder still (I love getting my cock slapped) and then she went back to sucking and licking my cock, in a really hot way too, kinda slutty, which was pretty awesome!
Some more slapping followed and then she sucked my balls, which I don't know that she's ever done before, that completely blew me away, and then she started rubbing my cock with a featherlight touch, finally she leaned forward and I pulled her to me, eager to taste my cock on her breath. Then she sat back and gave me a few more seconds of wonderful teasing and then kissed me again, my cock throbbing against her gorgeous tits through her T-shirt. Then it was over and once again I was left breathing hard as I was denied once more.
This was my reward for losing weight again this week, and that just makes me want to lose even more next week!!!

It's funny, when we were walking this afternoon we were discussing why we thought my weightloss was succesful this time where so many times it has failed. We agreed that it was partly starting at the right time, just at the start of the better weather, partly the discipline of doing my blog every single day, the fact that I've exercised every day bar a couple of days (and sometimes more than once), and of course there was also the fact that Mistress R told me that if I wanted her to continue to control my cock, then I had to do it.
Further to that, I said to Mistress R that there's also another dimension to it, that even though I'm not really her 'slave' as such, I still do have something of that mentality. As such I really do want to be my best for her, I want her to feel like I am worth 'having'.
I am certainly not doing this with the view to being attractive to other women, I couldn't care less about other women. I would love for Mistress R to feel proud that she has an attractive husband, and even prouder that she knew no other women could ever tempt him away from her. I feel that Mistress R has put up with a lot over the last ten years, regarding my weight gain and I would dearly love to compensate for that by being as 'hot' as I can get.
I'm 41, so the chances of me getting back to where I was when Mistress R met me are perhaps a little slim, since I had a completely flat stomach (not to mention 2 feet of hair!), I mean I would love to be totally ripped because I know Mistress R loves that kind of thing (she loves Schwarzenegger, and the 'Rock'...) but that may be a little ambitious. Still, at the very least I want to be another five stones lighter and ideally with the kind of body that means instead of getting up early to go to work in the morning, she can't help herself spending the  first part of the day sucking my cock until I'm about to shoot... and then gets up and goes to work! Hahaha.
I know she loves me, but I want her to really 'fancy' me again too. She says she does of course, but if I was a stranger I know I wouldn't have a chance with her, and that fucking sucks!! Hopefully by Christmas I will be a lot closer to my goal and once I've shifted a lot of the weight I can concentrate more on weights and building my arms up and stuff.
Like I said, I'm not Mistress R's slave as such, but there is a part of me that would love to be more of a slave than I am now. This will take time I know, and that's fine. But right now even if she doesn't think so, I feel like I must be dragging down her own self-image with my weight, and that if I was in shape that would reflect on her too, like she would see herself as more attractive because she was with a guy who wasn't out of shape and whatnot.
I think Mistress R is absolutely beautiful and I want to be with her until I die, but like most women she doesn't see how beautiful she is. I want to do anything I can to help her see how gorgeous she really is, because I want her to be happy and also because if she gets to realise how attractive she really is then maybe. eventually. she will start to believe that she deserves a little more of a slave than she has now... and that would be a wonderful thing for both of us I'm sure.

Still thinking about yesterday, I can't believe how quickly I got to the edge... it was an amazing feeling being inside Mistress R and teetering on the edge like that, trying to fuck her so slow so that I wouldn't cum without permission was so hard, but so hot! I just wish it could have lasted longer. I just don't understand it, I'm sure last time I was much further into chastity and managed to hold off much better.
I really thought Mistress R would have told me to cum once I told her I was close, but she didn't and I'm so proud of her for that (she told me afterwards that she thought about it and then decided against it, which is even hotter!). It's one thing for her to be stroking me and then decide 'that's enough', but to have me inside her, ready to blow, teetering on the edge and still tell me to stop, that's quite something I think.
After all that, last night we went to a massive Fireworks display last night, which was fantastic, and then we came home and watched 'Tough Love' on the new 'Really' channel. Mistress R and I love that kind of crap, Rock of Love, Tila's Shot at Love, Charm School... and 'Tough Love' is another winner!
So around midnight we decided to go to bed, and I got into bed and started thinking about earlier and by the time Mistress R came to bed my cock was like an iron bar, much harder than it was earlier (without the flipping cocksling, how typical is that!) and when Mistress R got into bed I cuddled her and felt my cock nuzzling against her gorgeous ass (don't get excited, that's never gonna happen!) and I was seriously, seriously thinking about using my first chance to touch my cock. But Mistress R was obviously really tired and I didn't want to appear either selfish or ungrateful for earlier, so I turned over and let her go to sleep*.
Thankfully I went to sleep pretty quickly too, although not before I very naughtily gave my cock a very hard squeeze to take away some of the ache... I guess I need to chalk another one up on the old transgression counter then.

*For those of you reading this who are yet to persuade their wives/girlfriends to take control of their cock, this is the kind of thing that they should be hearing about, this is what male chastity really does for you, makes you a 'better' man... and makes you think about your partner more than yourself. Even though I was literally throbbing-hard, and really quite desperate for her to stroke me or for her to allow me to stroke myself, I was more conscious of the fact that she was tired and trying to get to sleep.

Oh my God. I've just crawled out of bed after an afternoon recess with Mistress R. First of all I worshipped her beautiful, freshly pedicured feet, then kissed my way up her legs and then began to gently worship her pussy. It felt like forever since I had tasted her (it was Monday...) and I wanted it so much. I used my fingers and my tongue to bring her off and at that moment I finally felt all the stress of the last week dissipate, it was so, so good to feel her bucking under me like that.
Once she'd finished she told me to put the Oxballs Cocksling on, which I wasn't expecting, since that usually means she's going to let me inside her. Well, that's exactly what it meant, and not only that she wanted me to go on top! Oddly, the cocksling didn't feel quite right, almost like it was twisted slightly and it felt like it was only letting a certain amount of blood into my cock, it felt like there was a back-up around the base, but it was hard enough even if it wasn't quite as hard as I would have liked.
I slid my cock inside Mistress R and began kissing her feet as I slowly eased my cock deeper inside, each thrust a little deeper than the last, it felt like the cocksling had sorted itself out after all, but now I had a new problem to contend with, I was getting close to cumming! I couldn't believe how soon it came up, because last time we did this with me on top I found it a lot easier to keep away from the edge...
Frustratingly, Mistress R seemed to be getting into it and all I could think was, oh shit, I am gonna cum, so I had to slow right down and tell her that I was getting close... that was hard enough, the temptation to fuck her hard and shoot my load in her was unbelievably hard to resist, but there was no way I was going to do that. I doubt that Mistress R would have been 'upset' as such, but I wanted her to control my orgasms and she doesn't want me to be allowed to ask to cum, so at that point my only option was to tell her that I was getting too close. Actually I really thought that when I told her that, she would just say fuck me, cum in me then, but she didn't!
I waited a few seconds, feeling my cock pulsing inside her hot, wet cunt and then slowly started gently fucking her again, but all too soon I could feel myself right on the edge again, desperately not wanting to have to stop, wanting to saviour every last rare second of being inside her wonderful pussy. And so I rode it, all the time conscious that I could so easily slip over the edge and cum without permission... until finally she pushed me back and told me to stop.
My cock was rock hard then and took an age to go down, gripped tightly as it was by the cocksling. It took quite a while for my breathing to return to normal too, and Mistress R and I laid there for a while before I took the cocksling off. I told Mistress R that I couldn't begin to tell her how amazing that was for me, and I'm sure she can't really understand it, but I know you guys can. It was sooo hot, and sooo amazing....
After we had finished and we were laying there, Mistress R asked me how long it had been since I had cum, I told her it was a week, which I assumed she knew since she had allowed me to cum after the 'wonderful' family party last Saturday night.
She said, "Oh, not that long at all then."
I loved that she said that, and told her so. I think she slightly misunderstood what I meant since she said, "Well, that's what you tell me, isn't it three weeks before it really starts to do anything."
Well, for me it's about a week before it starts to bite and then it settles down and then it's about three weeks before it really starts to kick in. But my point really was that to hear her say that was so nice, like a week was nothing at all for me to wait. Oooh, yes.
Mistress R decided it was time to get up, but graciously allowed me to kiss her pussy one more time, I can literally never get enough of her taste, ever, so I try to get as much as I can whenever I can! And here I am, typing this for you, with the taste of her still in my mouth and my balls still nice and full. And I feel GREAT!

Over 2500 hits yesterday, but better than that I weighed this morning and (somewhat astonishingly) I lost another pound, which I didn't really deserve, but hey, there's been weeks I've felt cheated so what the hell. This means I am no longer 17St, but 16St....... Okay I'm 16St 13lbs, but I was 18St 1lb, so I'm feeling pretty good right now!

A marathon caption day yesterday, and believe it or not, this is my 700th post since April 4th. We should also be hitting the 200,000 hits mark later on today, which isn't bad for 4.5 months...

Well, Mistress R is off to have her pedicure done and later I will be taking care of her, after the week we've had I can't wait.

No, not in the bedroom! Who knows when, or even if that will ever happen again (just ask our dear friend 'k'!) ... no, this is much more important.
Last night Mistress R and I had a nice night out at a local pub, just the two of us, it seems like weeks since we did that. Anyway, the important thing was that during the course of the evening I reassured Mistress R that I still wanted her to have control and whatever she wanted was fine by me, even if that meant that I would have to get used to only being inside her occasionally, when SHE decides that she wants it.
She asked me several times if I was sure about what I was saying, and that she still wanted me to be able to tell her if I wasn't happy. I agreed that I would if it was necessary, but most of all I just wanted things back how they should be, with her having the freedom to choose whatever she wanted to do and to grow at her own pace. I must admit, she looked really happy when I told her this, and that made me feel really happy too.
When we got home Mistress decided to tease me by sucking and stroking my cock wonderfully, she also gently pulled on my balls and gave my cock some really lovely slaps too (unbelievably hot!) while telling me that was just the start of my punishment for touching my cock without permission... I was very hard, and I loved every second of it. I was also briefly allowed to worship Mistress R's feet later, which I absolutely loved doing.
I still massively regret what happened but at least we seem to have gotten over this hump, now I'm looking forward to giving Mistress some proper attention as soon as possible. I am so desperate to taste her and make her cum now... I want that more than anything.

Speaking of which, it seems I'm not the only one with an oral obsession, given that 82% of the first forty voters in my poll have chosen the 'Lick It' option over the 'Fuck It' option... I didn't really expect that, but I can certainly understand it!